Saturday, December 13, 2008
yea! no work today! no lah it's not that working's a bad experience but after standing and walking about for so many days it's time to take a break right?
met xinyu for lunch today at cp. i kinda miss those days when we took bus 159 to sch together. we had a longggg talk that we didnt realise we sat in yoshi without ordering any extras for one and a half hours. and apologies to anyone there if we talked um, really loud. she really look a lot like her bro( and she thought the same thing with mine too) but both of us deny it. hope she comes tj:)
random question: to what extent should we feel contented? how much is considered enough?
ehh this is not for a gp essay. just that i suddenly feel maybe i'm a bit over-contended.
teachs' comments : huishian works hard towards her goal. well i do put in effort( i guess) but the problem is, what do i wrk hard for, what's my goal? i realised i've never had one in mind. psle: just let me get enough to get into xinmin. o levels: when the adam khoo trainers ask us to put down our goals for the exams , i remember i wrote: less than or equals to 10. and my friends said, " you can get 6! write it down!" but all i thought was, " that range is enough".
and even now, as i see my friends knowing what they want to do in the future, fine arts, bio, reporters, bankers...i've to admit, i've no idea what i want to do. furthermore, i hadnt thought about it-as i thought i would- since a levels.
我觉得我已经迷迷糊糊，懵懵懂懂地活了18年。not all of it of course but some things are really wasted. i figured that the main reason i took such a long time to reach the grade 7 piano prac exam was because i took 7 years to realise i actually love the piano ( in other words, i spent 7 wasteful years hating it). then another 1.5 years to give up piano for something else which i realised i shouldnt have.
我现在已成为名副其实的钢琴老顽童/ah ma 了！
虾会咸阿虾会咸：人生不能过两次，要挑水还是砍木柴，要弄清楚！
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